a week had passed and loads of stuff happened during this week....
a week is enough for a lot to happen and alot of new thoughts to flood into ones mind...
this past week of mind is a long n dreaded one....
i never wanted a week like that and i never expect this 1 week to come so fast...
never one will expect things to happen so fast and within such a short period of time...

All started with her fever which comes on n off for mths... to b exact i cant really recall how long it had been...
all along she refuses to see a doc...
but she did go eventually...

on the 1st oct 2006
she was sent to SGH by my auntie 4...
she fell on the street the day b4... so no choice, we gotta send her in...
she was immediately admitted into the hospital as her fever was adnormal...
close to 40 degrees... seldom happen to a normal human being..
she is still concious and clear in mind...
still in the mood to grunble and nag at all of us who visited her...
we all took turn to acc her, as we sense the fear in her...

for the following aproximately 10 days, the doc did not come to any conclusion...
no reports of any diseases or illness... wat they did all along was controlling her fever..

11 oct 2006
the day b4 i depart for Bintan for my event...
i worked till abt 9++ b4 heading to the hospital...
went off wif suleen.. she sent me to SGH...
on my way... i received a call frm my mum..
the doc's report showed that my aunt had Lymphoma
and she has only abt 2 weeks...
the only thg that prolongs her life is all the treatments.. but still... no promises...

12-15 Oct 2006
was away from my aunt...
went to bintan for my proj..
regardless how much i wish to stay here.. i choose to go..
cos, the proj is a baby to me and i cant jus let go..
my dad also agreed on me goin...
its the responsibility and its my job to b there...
so i went...

15 Oct 2006
Rushed to the hospital the moment i touched down at the ferry terminal...
finally get to see her aft so many days..
i put down my stuff and walk over to her...
my mum n others are surrounding her..
she is resting... wif her eyes closed..
my mum called her...
"jiajia lai le"
i see her slowly opening her eyes...
i walked near... nearer to her...
"er yi ma"
i saw her.. her eyes opened..
my tears almosted rolled down...
jokingly i asked: "ni xiang wo ma??"
i saw her moving her head
she is noddin
she's trying to say something...
i went over by her n bent forward....
i told her" er yi ma, wo hui lai le, ni bu yao jiang hua, xiu xi xian"
she nodded...

she is so use to havin us by her..
i know she feels insecure when we are not around...
she dun really like to be alone...

everyone left slowly...
i stayed behind wif daddy n mummy...
i jus wanna accompany her a little longer..

16 Oct - 25 Oct
Everything seems fine...
she seems to b gettin better...
she is having her dialysis everyday to keep breathing n water discharge smooth..
I begin to have hope that she is recovering...

26 Oct
took half dae off at home...
i am sick... resting...
left for wrk ard 12+
the moment i stepped out of the train, i received a call frm congrong...
"u gt michael's number??, find him... the doc wanna speak to him"
i immdiately contacted meiting...
they rushed down to SGH as i headed my way back to the office...
the feelin is bad.. felt very uneasy... i am waiting...
waiting for meiting's update...

finally she dropped me a msg...
"Doc wan all of us down at the hospital... come if you can..."
i am puzzled... i called her
she was crying..
i rushed down aft tt... i left my wrk behind... n head to the hosiptal...

the moment i reached... i saw all of them crying...
auntie 4 outside the ward.. talking rubbish...
i saw alot of docs n nurses rushing in n out...
"she gt breathing difficulty, very low blood count, we will try our best"
this is wat we were told...
the next moment, i saw her being pushed out of the ward... to the ICU...
i rushed all the way there to wait.. jus in case anytime she will need us...
the others dare not go... they were afraid...

all ofus gathered outside ICU... we waited for abt 3 hrs...

they said that her condition is better... but not stabilized...
they wan us to take turn to acc her in the night outside the ICU, to keep her company and also be on standby... jus in case...

28 Oct 2006
10 am in the morning...
i received a call...
"is that Jiahui"
"yes i am"
"i am calling frm SGH, the doc wants to speak to you all urgently, pls come down now"
"oh, ok..."
i immediately went to wake jiawen and we took a cab down...
blood pressure goin down again...
Oh My...
all of us gathered again...
i went in to see her the moment i reached... my mum's in there..
wif me n jiawen...
me n jiawen went near to her..
i called her"er yi ma"
todae is different.. she opened her eyes wide open...
"yi ma.. ni bu yao pa... rang yi shen bang ni... hao ma.."
again she nod her head.. but i see tears rolling down her cheeks...
"yi ma... bu yao ku... ni hui hao de.. wo men dou zai deng ni.. hao ma"
she nodded...
i took a tissue and wipe off her tears...
i went out aft tt.. tell her that i am outside waiting...
everyone took turns to visit her...
i went in again wif meiwei...
she was afraid to go in... thats y...
i know she has fear, but i still wan her to see yi ma...
we went in... we called her..
we called a few times.. no response...
so we left... thkin that she is taking a rest...

meiwei break into tears the moment she stepped out of ICU...

most of us left ard 3++ head home for bath n stuff..

8.30pm...
i received a called frm congrong...
"where r u? are u comin over??"
"erm... not sure.. maeb later"
8.45pm...
another call frm godmummy...
"where r u??"
"can come over??"
"yi ma blood pressure very low"
i immediately head down to get a cab... i cant...
i cant get any.. eric ask me to call...
i called, n her accompanied me to but tissue as my silly tears are giving way...
i board the cab leaving eric behind...
he look diff.. i thk he sense the fear in me...
i ran to ICU..

i am late... like usual
i lost her...
lost the chance to see her for the last time...
no more 2nd chance...
no more...

Its hard to accept..
I admit i cant..
but i believe.. to her...
Its a relieve..