Love

Feelings is an wonderful n amazing creation of God.
They let all living thgs have feelings but they leave it to us to handle it by ourselves..
and through the process of self managing of feelings....
alot alot of stories and situations occurs...
eventualli this leads to never ending scenes that completes a person's life...

To me, i appreciates this kind of feeling...
regardless if its good or bad...happy or sad...
at least, i feel...
cos to me.. feeling makes people closer and understand...

Feelings consists of tonnes and tonnes of combination...
recentli i came across a few..
common few... but it doesnt mean that its gd...

Love

now its the festive season...
Christmas, New Year, V day, Lunar New Year etc...
Season of love...
season of care n share...
alot of lovely thgs happening...
great new couples, bloomin relationships...
very very sweet... very very nice...

I wanna get to a point abt love is that...
love is understandin, love is tolerating...
but remeber.. love is not changing a person...
if frm the beginning.. u have the concept of changin a person...
then pls.. let him/her go...
this is harmful...
this will cause the other party to lost himself/herself...
and worse thg is, when thgs turn sour...
he/she is gonna hate u..

hopefully 2007 will be a year of love..
Cousin Amy getting married.. Congrong jie getting married...
2 in the family... Gd..
i dun mind seeing more frm my friends side...
*jia you k*

Hate

this is the scary one i can say...

this is cause by too much of LOVE... too much of love that has no return of has lousy return caused hate.. hatred is a scary feeling...

if u can overcome or control.. still not that bad.. but jus imagine u cant... the outcome will b disasterous...

it might cause one to loose himself/herself.. lost hope in life.. lost hope in wrk.. lost hope in family... and slowly.. looses hope in everythg includin himself/herself...

this is serious...

but if u are gd enough to control... nt everythg bt at least ur temper and emotions...

u might still end up being hurt.. and the outcome might be fear...

Fear

This is forever.. unless the angel comes by and stay by u...

fear stays in one forever and never go.. terror.. worse than any other thg tt i can imagine..

i see alot of ppl being hunt by fear...

fear of being hurt, fear of getting into r/s, fear to trust..

tonnes of issues...

i am keepin myself reserve frm these 3 issues... too complicating... dun even wish to talk abt it... haha.. running away ba

i kinda miss this look..

Chinese New Year Day 2...

This is Part 2 to CNY Day 1...
the reason behind creatin a part 2 is bcos...
this entry will be of a extreme diff feelin and mood from the previous...

somethgs happened in 2006 that cause changes in our life...

as most of u guys know..
my er yi left us on 28 Oct 06..
that means this is the 1st CNY w/o her...
she is the master chef..
so w/o her means others gt to take over her responsibility...
all these fell on da yi ma...
poor thg...

The moment i reach chai chee that day..
meiting was tellin me that Da yi cried...
i expect thgs like tt to happen..
haiz... make me feel super lousy...

that night was the major gatherin...
1 reason is bcos CNY
the other is bcos... we needa discuss abt er yi's assets...
er yi left us some stuff...
so.. aft these period..
i guess.. they decided that its time we all talk abt it...

7 of us were made the god children of my er yi...
so all of us were given a share of smthg..
we were all called into the room... one at a time...

the moment we took over the 'FINAL' token given on behalf of er yi ma
we felt the pain in us...
we are slowly learning to accept the facts...
we need time... or i shld say...
i need time....

Thanks Yi Ma.... Thanks for what u had given us... Thanks...

after that the younger ones came upon and asked me...
"why they wanna distribute the stuff??"
i simply said
"its ur last gift frm er yi.. treasure it"

i can still rem the lost expression on mei wei's face...

haiz...

This night isnt a simple one..
its a night with wif contradictin feelings...
besides this.. somethg else happened... hmmm..
upset....

Me n Ng Family No3 (Wei Shun) he is the oni gd boy who calls me Jie Jie.. haha.. tall enough to b my bf liao...My GodMummy... My ah Kor... Zheng Family No 1
Zheng Family No2 (Qinglong).. He is cool lor... cool=SUPER QUIET

My Auntie 4.. Mummy of the Ngs... Super Act Cute lor..

My 'Zhong Duo Zu' Da yi Ma..

Finally will be the PIcs consisting the 7 of us...

Although we no longer meet as often... but i am very glad that we are still as close...

Thanks

The remaining of the nite was 'blackjack'...
haha... movie no more tix... ktv need to book.. no clubbin cos some underage...
So... NO CHOICE lor.. haha..
I wIN Money can le... haha...

There will be a part 2 to this entry...
Stay Tuned...

Suppose to be doin my CNY updates...
but guess wat...
i left all the pics i am gonna upload at home...
sianz..
cannot do anithg then...

hmm..
dunno why..
all of a sudden miss my gers alot..
Reen, Mindy, Eugenia, Joan...
dunno y..
all of a sudden misses them alot..
but realli cant find the time to meet u gers..
sorry...
*hugs*
Love u gers...
Call me when u all free k...

Today's the Eve of CNY.. dunno if i will get the chance to blog these 2 days..

This is a supporting entry to my previous...

HappY Valentine's DAy to ALL

It was Valentine's Day Yesterdae...
hmm... nuttin special this year..
cos someone not free for me...
haha....
nvm la...

They didnt tie the Niu Niu properly.. i redo it myself..
hehe... i gt it in office...

Nice lor.. its my fav.. lilies and roses..

its the 1st time in so mani years that u r givin me LILIES...

I LOVE LILES.. haha

thanks... i really love it..
*hugs*

Today is the 13th February...
Eve of Valentine's day...
this isnt an important day to most of the people around...

ITs Important to HER...

ITs her Birthday...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DOREEN...

we had a pre-birthday celebration for her last night in town..

we went for korean dinner and then to coffee session..

My BBQ Pork With Mushroomsreen's dunno wat mixed rice
Eugenia's Hot n Spicy Pork Soup
Chill Out Snacks at NYDC...
Each of us choose a diff type of ice kopi...
Yucks!
Me and the Birthday Ger..
Eugenia and the Birthday Ger
We gt her a surprise...
Reen.. Lao le.. Lao le...

Her Bdae Song
Link: http://s69.photobucket.com/albums/i74/purpleangela/?action=view&current=MOV03271.flv


WE LOVE YOU!!