Happiness isnt a complimentry item in life...
its not a confirm and definite feeling...
it is a feelin that goes off easily...
all along i try to minimise all the problems i have...
telling myself that thgs can b solved...
no problem can beat me flat...
cos i am angela...
eric, u were askin me last night..
"y ur blog make u seem such a happy person?"
"only happy thgs meh??"
Dear, i only wanna write abt happy stuff, cos i dunno how to put my saddness and unhappiness into words..
i dunno what are thgs i shld sae and wat are thgs i shldnt..
i am a person who has trust issue.. gab noticed this side of me...
ya.. its true...
i dun trust ppl easily...
but i believe ppl easily...
as long as they seem true to me...
i believe them as long as they dun let me have doubts..
i trust but not on personal issues...
even if i trust u, i might keep mum abt my personal feelins...
cos...
i simply dunno how to put them into words..
i dunno how to phrase my problems...
i can only speak to people who realli understands me..
and dun need me to explain further...
so this time round.. i am oni speakin to these few ppl..
u shld know who u r ok...
b prepared.. haha...
Read on cindy's blog regardin her stress and concern...
i like the way she can express her stress and unhappiness...
this is not wat i am gd at...
the oni feelin i am best at besides laughin n jokin, will be the 'pek chek' face...
haha... i am gd at it lor.. i thk recentli someone close gt alot frm me lor...
Am i rite Ms E??
as i wrote in my previous entry,
i felt that bad season fallin on me...
indeed it is true.. it fell on me...
i am down once again...
down to the me beginning to loose my emotions...
or i shld say.. my true emotions...
ppl will still b seein the same old angela...
but i know i am not..
this will take time to heal...
Eric, i have alot to say...
alot i wanna express...
alot of feelin in me..
i cant run away...
i have to face it...
i feel so sick...
so tired...
so helpless...
i MIss My CareFree Day...
"I WANNA BE A KID ONCE AGAIN.. JUST FOR A DAY... PLEASE"
someone pls help!!
Friday, February 02, 2007