Today is the 1st day i am being alone all by myself..
the 1st 24 hrs w/o the precious person..
i know i am the person who chose this path..
and i am the person who makes the situation like that..
i know.. i understand...

its just that for the good of the 2 of us..
i feel that this will be the better way out...
realli...
for us to grow independently and stronger as we go along..
thanks so much for accomdating to it although i know you dun wan it to happen...
( if i have a choice i dont want it to happen either)

in the last 24 hrs..
the most frequent activity for me is crying..
the thought of him makes me tear non stop..
his look.. his behaviours.. his words.. his smses.. his smile.. his jokes.. etc
everythg keeps flowin into my mind non stop...

i know i am stupid...
askin for smthg that i dunno if it is right or wrong..
givin up someone whom i never wanna let go...
but i believe that this is better for the 2 of us...
for our future.. for our growth...
i dunno if what i had done now is right or wrong...
but to me.. this is the better path... its tough..
i will endure.. i will bear wif all pain...
cos i wanna see the better him and me...

dear,
please understand where i am coming frm..
i realli love u...
but i am sure.. life does not consist abt love...
theres much more thgs jus than love...
so please understand ok...

i know the risks i am taking...
the facts that
you might meet another ger and fall in love;
u might begin to hate me ( i realli NEVER want this to happen, Please)
i am still taking the risk...
cos i believe.. this is the way to force the 2 of us to grow...

i wanna let u know that...
for all these years even now at this very moment...
i still LOVE u...
I love u lotz dear....